As i sit here reminiscing my past, i realised I have been somewhat a spoilt little brat, but pity myself for having the weakness to allow myself to think such a humiliating anguish.
The path of my life that i never thought would exist, lay out infront of me. Mindless to think that i would have a smooth journey, i had another thing coming.
God has laid it out for me, yet i do ponder why so many downhills in life? i find that the epitome of my life is summed up in one word- mystery. I should not be complaining as my life doesn't compare to the most disadvantaged humans but it doesn't mean i cannot reflect on such intricate situations i have been through.
Many may not understand what I'm attempting to express, but one has their down moods in life and, for me, tonight is one of them.
I love everyone who have come across my life, whether you were here for a couple days or a couple of years, I believe, each and every person has somehow altered my life.
Families. now what can we endorse through these blood-related or even marrigae-related groups? Yes, they are loving and caring and supportive blhablhalbha. However, I'm referring to the downsides of having them in one's life. the unecessary argument and torments we go through because of them. The amount of neogtiation(which you can't really refer to them AS negotiation), or rather orders and demands. Then we have the breaking of families where 'marriages dont work out' GREAT! lets all suffer for the consequences of little hiccups parents cannot get over.
lest we forget the ones we have lost. i do really miss them. rest in peace. i sometimes do imagine how life would be if everyone was still here onearth. the vast amount of changes it could make...
Enough criticisms. i think i have made myself quite clear that, inmy life, family has many downsides which is why i prohibit any of them to enter in my 'bubble' of privacy and turn to my friends for the moral support .
I therefore want to sincerely thank my many friends that have led me through my life and appreciate the ears that have listened and the minds that have adviced.
p.s- sorry nathan..
